I will never susahkan my mum because she's my mum.

okay it's Saturday and everybody is going to WALK FOR HEALTH thingy. But I didn't go because I wanna concentrate on my study. Exam is just around the corner iqah. Focus and struggle more. And I tak kisah if my mum cannot come today. Kesian ma penat seminggu hantar ebi sekolah lah macam-macam lagi. So if maa tak datang pun it's okay. I can still eat at the DM. I wanna try to be like other students that live so far away from Cyberjaya and they can only see their parents during Raya. Pity them. Although I hate boarding school, but this is my second home. This is my home. What can I say. I was choosed to be here. There's a billion of request outside there. I am the chosen one. and that's it, I come here is to be an independent girl. I cannot look outside the window everyday and I can see my home from here and keep saying. "maa abah nak balik!" No offence. Everyday is the same day, same routine. Maybe at home. mum and dad is your parents, sisters and brothers are your sibling. But here at school, teachers are my parents and friends are my siblings. Ohana means family and family means no one left behind. I need to accept that.I've been thinking about keluar sekolah after PMR. But if I imagined back ma and abah's face, I cannot do that. They had give too much for me. Money, clothes, awesome foods, loves, what else? In what way should I give it back to them unless giving my 8 A'S  slip result or 10 A'S Spm result? This is my chance. Allah had given eveything to me. Clever brain, SSP, good teachers. and now it's up to me I wanna use it properly or not. So the conclusion is I just need to study, That's it. why is it so hard iqah. ma came every week to wash your clothes, cook for you. Abah give you money every week. Layan semua kerenah you. What else do you want? Ya allah, help me in this final examination. Please at least let me try to get 5A'S and above for my parents, I wanna see their smiling faces when they hold my results. At least once. I swear, their smiling faces are the most meaningful thing in my life. I promise to keep on studying and pray to you. Terangkan hatiku ya allah. Amin. ma, abah, I will keep my pledge. No matter what if you didn't read this post, I will make you read it one day. :)