god, :(

everythings doing fine out there, accept me ;( my status, please mom, If you read this blog, I've been thinking wisely already I think. I f my upcoming exam is quite sucks or not performing good, let me out of this school, I already try my best, can't you think how about my PMR? I'm so homesick, and I'm sure if you let me out of this school, I will study properly at home, I don't care how much tuision you wanna give me, i'LL ACCEPT IT AND APPRECIATE IT AND WILL STUDY REALLY HARD, as long as let me be beside you and abah always, in your heart, in your dream and of course in front of your eyes, I know my house is just like 5 minutes from school, but I don't want that to be the reason why I have to saty at this school, I am the chosen one outside, but I'm not the chosen one here, please, I want to be like those kids outside, enjoying their life everyday, colour the rainbows, meet their parents everyday, and I just wanna tell the truth, this school's silivers is to fast, I cannot catch up, what am I suppose to do? It's good if you guys were right beside me and tell me what to do, please, UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS :( I HOPE YOU READ THIS POST, BECAUSE I'M AFRAID TO SAY IT FACE TO FACE :(
p/s : my tears already come out, so byebye :'(